April

and so i`m writing this as I feel a little bit better

So much things happened. I was food poisoned twice in March. and now, im having flu like its not even gonna end. yes, it has been a week. and for your information , the doctor sucked my blood twice. First blood test, I was kind of schocked because the woman working at the clinic said that I have to take another blood test.

Why?
Because the doctor afraid that my blood would go down further. haaa? I dont know what did she mean by that. Medical things.Perhaps.

And so, I had the second test which the result will be out anytime. Regarding the first test the doctor told me that my platelets were ok. but a lil bit worrying to my white blood cell because they are totally out of range. If the test is the same, I have to take further treatment.

Im not worried about myself. Im worried about my mama.
She has been crying a lot. asked me to eat this, eat that.dont eat this dont eat that.

WBC y u no NORMAL?!

I`ll update soon. cya!

Hipokrit

Semalam 12 Februari

Bangun pagi siap2 nak pergi intec  library. Tapi agenda utamanya memang aku nak ke The GIFT. Ok the Gift tu program The Greatness in Fatihah. Kalau tak silap. Sampai library bukak buku tiba-tiba teringat. Hey, program tu dia buat kat mane wei??? Semangat bukan maen tapi tak tahu kat mane program tu. sigh* Afiqah Amalin.

Program start pukul 8 aku dtg pukul 11. Buat muka seposen.
salah satu sebab kenapa aku join, aku rasa..jiwa aku ni dia macam ada kurang. Kadang-kadang terfikir jugak, kita asyik kejar dunia padahal dunia ni tak kekal pon. Yang kekal akhirat weii.

So, program ni ungkap satu persatu ayat dalam Surah Al Fatihah. Satu yang terkena jantung hati aku ni bila ustaz cakap kita puji Allah dalam solat tapi luar solat kita buat maksiat. And yes ladies and gentlemen, thats hypocrite.

Kita marah orang cakap lain bikin lain. Tapi.. hermm tu lahh.

kaler biru

Sabtu 4 Februari.

Hari ni keluar dengan Awanis dengan kawannya Fiera. Memang dah plan lama jugak. Bila pergi Mid tak plan pulak nak tgk movie. Movie apa pon tak plan jugak. Tapi budak 2 orang ni yang memang terkenal dengan kaki novel telah memilih cerita Azura. I was like . hah?!! Azura??? noooo tidaaak hahaha. Tapi tak pe lah harap- harap persepsi pertama aku berubah. Tapi tidak, sekian.

Sabtu, Ahad Isnin.

Ma angkat aku suruh aku bermalam rumah kak zira kat Puchong sana. Aku tak sanggup nak tolak. Bila dah pergi rasa macam tak mo balik pulak. haish. Anak sulong kakak aku , Athirah . umur dia 5 tahun. Bila tanya dia

AKu : thirah kenapa semua kaler ni ada penanda warna biru

Athirah : Ye lah. Ibu yang buatkan nanti kawan thirah amek.

Ok make sense jugak. Jadi, bila aku dah sampai akasia aku terkejut. Pensil, stapler aku sume pon skarang dah ada penanda biru. Bertuah punya budak.

Kakak aku ni dia kahwin awal tao. Umur 23 dah kawen. Jadi sekarang umur 28 anak dah dua. Bila tengok kehidupan dia memang sibuk gila. Aku tengok pon scary. Tapi satu , aku nampak dia hepi je ;)

p/s: Kashaf Imani. Aku suka.

EGO

Biggest mistake.

2 persons who love each other but cannot be together and that boy does not know the girl loves him. The girl does not know the boy loves him. Because of EGO.

EGO

EGO

EGO

Firman Allah swt.


"...sesungguhnya sembahyang itu mencegah daripada perbuatan yang keji dan mungkar..."




Surah Al - ankabut ayat 45




Dah baca ayat ni tapi hati tak rasa apa-apa?. Baca lagi sambil fikir. ok?